FOREVER

2012-02-06T16:39:00.003+08:00

I need a break from Singapore big time.

Genting, 2nd - 4th March

Bangkok, 28th March - 2nd April

March is gonna be awesome.

Oh and by the way, I have officially stopped partying.

Unless it's a friends' birthday celebration.

Money should be spent somewhere else huh?

So bored at work..

Can't wait for movie with the boy later on tho'! ^^

2012-02-03T11:08:00.004+08:00

What if it doesn't work out in the future uh?

Sigh. Then I'll have to go through all that bullshit again.

Live for the moment?

Love with no regrets?

Easier said than done.

#random

2012-01-31T01:01:00.001+08:00

I fall for you more and more each day.

2012-01-30T17:05:00.004+08:00

I miss those times where we would all just hang out and be happy.

But I know it'll never be the same again.

Too many conflicts, too many trust issues.

I chose not to care.

Because ignorance is bliss.

Sadly, not everyone can do the same.

I had a really awesome weekend.

Two house parties and a yacht party.

So my phone dropped into the sea yesterday.

But I think it was the highlight of the night, haha.

Well, my night at least.

Happy first. :)

Too good to be true.

2012-01-08T02:21:00.002+08:00

Presenting you...

'We The Clubbers'

I admit it's a very stupid name.

Missing a few more members tho.

We found love in a hopeless place~~

Finally met the bestie today.

After a month.

Mizz his nonsense.

All the cursing and swearing at each other.

Random neck-grabbing on the streets.

Never fails to make my day.

Visited Adiman at the hospital.

Had like a mini Greenview gathering.

Ahhh, I miss those days :(

Would give anything to go back to secondary school with the same people again.

Anyway, hope mansor gets well soon! :)

Life has been....

asdksajaskdaskd

Tired.

So. Fucking. Tired.

2012-01-02T12:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM UZ TO YOU :)

New year resolution: Quit smoking. Avoid unnecessary partying. Save money.

TRAVELLLL ALOT ALOT ALOT.

2011-12-28T13:03:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas! :)

J is super duper sweet!

Wanted to scream because I was too happy.

But I maintain. Hehe :* :*

2011-12-16T11:51:00.005+08:00

Ladies Night.

I think it has been a month since I last went to Zouk/Phuture.

Had a blast.

Mad thrills tonight.

Inquisitive! ^^

2011-12-12T13:53:00.002+08:00

Regret giving ZoukOut 2011 a miss.

And watching this isn't making me feel any fucking better.

FML.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bx_uhW-hms&feature=youtu.be&a

2011-12-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

So me and my girls are flying to Bangkok during March.

Excited!

Have been planning to fly there ever since June but our plan always fail.

But this time we booked the tickets already!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!

May March be here as soooon as possible!!

2011-12-06T00:38:00.002+08:00

so i thought i was going to have the worst monday of my life.

no school, plans cancelled.

things changed when ivan rang me up! :)

played mahjong at my place.

sick bastard won my money, so technically i'm paying for his mc.

had dinner at ikea after that with mr. maniar!

first time in 18 years i ate their oh so famous meatballs.

loser much?

to be honest the dinner made my day :)

thank you! teehee.

guess what, i am officially tired of forcing myself to go to school.

can't stand it anymore.

i know i have been saying this ever since year 1.

but i have reached the peak.

can't hold on any longer.

help?

2011-12-05T01:17:00.003+08:00

Friends, Lovers, or Nothing.

There can only be one.

I had an awesome weekend.

Not that other weekends were boring.

But spending time with this particular someone,

on both Friday and Saturday made me really happy!

You have noooo idea.

Not forgetting my babygirl~

Luv chu.

Contemplating if I should go for zoukout.

Some really sweet person wants to give me his extra ticket.

Hmm.

2011-11-29T23:38:00.001+08:00

2011-11-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

Keep telling myself that I can't get emotionally attached to anyone.

Don't wanna get used to having someone there,

someone who can make me so happy,

someone who cares for me, some one whom i'll think of the whole day.

Because in the end, that someone is going to hurt me.

Been there done that.

But, I can't stop myself from feeling like this.

I feel so happy whenever he texts, &it has been a long time since I last felt like this.

I'm secretly hoping it'll last longer than I think it will.

Somebody, please give me the strength to pull through.

2011-11-27T16:29:00.003+08:00

HOLA :>

I spent my Saturday with my favourite people.

It has been some time since we last had this kinda gathering.

Room, HTHT, alcohol, fun.

Ben's 21st at Hard Rock Hotel!

The room was okay but the bed is damn comfortable.

They have very cute guitar stuff everywhere!

So all of us were raping each other.

Not literally but ya.

They tied both my hands and legs together..

Swinged me around. Threw me on the bed.

Damn annoying. Haha.

4 bottles of alcohol, 6 cans of beer, 1 bottle of EC; 9 people.

Enough to make all of us high.

Therefore it was an awesome night even tho I crashed damn early.

Conquered the bed and the blanket #likeaboss

Happy birthday BFF! :)

I have been very happy lately! #justsaying :)

Not gonna worry about what's gonna happen next, just gonna live for the moment.

Not gonna force myself not to feel this way.

LET EM EMOTIONS FLOW!~~

2011-11-26T14:08:00.002+08:00

&So I Zirca-ed last night.

Saw so many people.

Some people I miss so much, and some people I don't wanna see at all.

Rest of the photos with Noah.

I think he made my night, source of entertainment.

HAHA.

Happy birthday BFF, Benjamin Kierannnn.

I love you :*

2011-11-25T16:09:00.001+08:00

Avatar-ed yesterday.

Still contemplating if I should go for Zirca's 3rd tonight.

Damn broke. But don't wanna paitao also.

&I realised I'm damn fucking sick.

Fuck.

2011-11-24T03:03:00.003+08:00

wheee, so i'm lying on my bed right now as i blogged.

was supposed to celebrate syuan's birthday today but shit happens.

thennn was supposed to club but we were too lazy.

so we had heart2hearttalk wednesday! :)

think i'm getting emotionally attached to someone.

die. this is not supposed to happen till like maybe next year!!

but oh well i guess we can't force ourselves to not feel smth, vice versa.

what the hell, we only live once right?!

so tired. have been struggling with flash for the past half an hour.

one animation down, four more to go.

hope i can finish it by latest 6pm tomorrow!

if not i can forget about clubbing.

back to avatar tomorrow after 3 months,

with tyrone as well!

it has been so long since we last partied together.

miss those times when i was attached and dancing w another guy,

and when my bf came in they immediately cut in between me and the guy.

haha so cute.

ok talking nonsense now, goodnight. x

2011-11-22T22:07:00.003+08:00

First day of block today.

Totally forgotten how hard it is to focus in class in the morning :(

Heh but on a lighter note, my lecturer is pretty cute!

&Kat was paying attention so I could asked her for help!

As you can see my attention span is pretty short ya..

Afternoon class was cancelled (again), so headed over to Amanda's to play mahjong!

If only people pay me to play mahjong man!

Confirm quit school and become gambling queen. Heehee.

Headed to Marina sq with my baby sister after to accompany her to shop for her prom dress.

I swear I can't stand looking at her or hearing her speak.

Reminds me a lot of her brother luh! Hahaha.

But yep it was nice getting to spend some time with her again.

Me on her wallpaper hehe! So sweet hor this girl.

Now I'm home and I have school at 9am tomorrow.

&Bloody submission on Friday.

Uhh idk how I'm going to party on wednesday and thursday.

Shall try to do my assignment now before I end up taking mc!! :(

But I'm so tired already...

2011-11-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

Funny how all day I just look forward to your texts.

Yup, that's a big smile alright.

But..

I'm trying not to feel this way.

Because all good things come to an end.

2011-11-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

Luv them both maximum.

Good bye weekends.

Class at 9 fucking am tomorrow.

It has been forever since I last woke up at 7.30am.

Fuck.

It's going to be a very eventful week.

Work tomorrow. Shopping with my baby sister on Tues.

Ladies night with the babytches on Wed.

Maybe Avatar on Thursday. Zirca's 3rd on Friday.

BFF's birthday celebration on Saturday.

Uh huh, tell me about it.

Don't know where to find the energy.

Body's failing. I can feel it.

Cutting down on the sticks.

Hard but I don't have a choice.

Don't know why but Sundays are my think-alot days.

So yeah feeling like fuck now.

Good night.

Have a great week ahead all.

Oh and Happy 21st to my dearest friend Joshua Yesh Maniar who's stuck in camp now.

Heh. Hugz.

2011-11-19T13:02:00.002+08:00

Friday Friday gotta get down on Friday..

Had a pretty i-dont-know-how-to-describe Friday.

Thing I learnt, don't go around telling people you have guestlist.

Because my phone kept ringing non-stop for the whole day.

&You know, blackberry's battery life sucks. So ya.

Helipad with the people yesterday.

Happy to sorta welcome C into the package deal I already have with A.

First problem last night; guestlist ratio has to be 1 guy to 2 girls.

We had 4 guys and 6 girls. Stress a bit here and there.

But thanks to Jeremy, this problem was settled.

Second fucking problem, when we were going in and it was the boys turn..

The fucking cb bouncer said the boys have to be 21 and above.

SMLJ. I looked around, half of the boys that already gotten the chop were fucking below 20.

I was in a very fucked up mood already.

Waited for the whole day for this type of rules.

So I suggested "you all go distract the bouncers, I go steal the chop la"

Everybody laughed and thought I was kidding.

Hur. But Kzel don't like to have a ruined Friday.

It was 12.30am, we were still outside because our dear boys can't get in.

SO GUESS WHO GREW SOME BALLS AND SAVED THE NIGHT?

HAHA. Things changed, we had a hell lot of drink coupons.

So... shots shot shots shots shots shots shot shots!

Ended the night with macs breakfast and crashed Joel's place with C &a malay guy.

I forgot his name...

Now I'm home and I really wanna sleep.

So, good night. :)

2011-11-18T15:14:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Boy am I glad to announce that it's the END OF BLOCK! Yipeeee! :)

So... I completed the one and only assignment we have for this module in 2 nights.

#whatsnew #storyofmylife #procrastinatorsneverwin

The babygirls came over to my house for two nights straight.

Did work, talk nonsense and all that.

Wouldn't have been able to finish my work without their company!

XOXO

So my weekend started early this week, on a Thursday.

#lifeofadesignstudent

That leaves me with 3 nights to enjoy before the start of a really hectic block.

Friends taking the two modules together have been complaining like fuck.

So I guess I'm bidding goodbye to my social life and saying hello to a lot of sleepless nights.

Sigh. But after this comes the two weeks holidays!

Short but I really need it.

Life has been fucking me up in all ways.

Okay not life actually.

Heart > Head or Head > Heart?

2011-11-14T01:41:00.004+08:00

It takes so long for the weekends to come, but so fast for it to pass.

4th week of school starts tomorrow.

Yeah but guess who's still in the holiday mood.

Submission this coming thursday, guess who's sketch pad is still empty?

Number one procrastinator. #win

Okay moving on, need I tell you how I spent my weekends?

Standard uh. Sadly I'm getting bored of it.

But go chou re nao la ;)

After yesterday night, I tweeted 'time to take a break'.

From clubbing. Yes I said that.

But this morning I woke up to a text from Bella..

'Clubbing this friday night uh ;) steady'

THEN I REMEMBERED WE'RE SUPPOSED TO CELEBRATE SYUAN'S BDAY THIS WEEK.

Not I don't want to stop uh..

Heh but whatever, we only live once. Enjoy sua?

Gonna mass text everyone for Zoukout tomorrow.

Teehee. First ever zoukout eh!!! :)

Anyway... apart from all that, I think my life is pretty fucked up.

1. I give no shit about school.

2. I get mind fucked everyday.

3. There's some war going on between my head and my heart.

"You're in my mind. You're in my heart"

Oscar asked me who I was talking about.

I myself don't even know eh how.

Been telling myself not to get attached to anyone so quickly.

But it gets really really hard when people are nice to me.

Wanna switch off my humanity so badly.

Wanna live each day without having to feel any pain, any heart aches..

Love how we can fight and be pissed at each other for one minute,

but the next minute we're still the best of friends.

&I officially kept the necklace into the box and in my cupboard.

Bye bye you. For real.

2011-11-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

HOLA! :)

It's Thursday already, how time flies~

I had an awesome Thursday, how about chu? ^^

Met bbg at TP to eat my favourite design nasi padang.

Cheap + good, who no rikes?!

After our late lunch, we headed to town to look for jobs.

Because we're so broke and we don't wanna depend on our parents.

&Yay, we found a job! Teehee.

We ended up shopping a little as well. Girlllls!

I love my new shoes!!!!

Long bus ride back to the east, mini heart to heart talk as well.

Love her for always listening to me rant/whine/complain. :*

Came home, removed my make-up, change, and I went for a run.

The last time I ran was like in August I think.

1 and a half round of the usual netball route.

I almost died.

But this is just day 1, another 29 days to go.

I CAN DO THIS.

Fucking getting fatter and fatter as the days pass.

But I felt damn good after the run. Heehee.

Now, I'm going to crash.

Have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow.

Hope I don't have to go for the surgery tomorrow.

Some other day please...

Good night all, xx.

2011-11-08T02:14:00.004+08:00

My life is so not happening.

Weekends - club.

Weekdays - skip school and find things to do.

Can I fucking learn how to prioritize?!

School has started for almost 3 weeks now and I'm still in the holiday mood. #win

Anyhooo, went to Zouk with my babygirls on Friday.

Kat's friends were supposed to come also but I don't know why I didn't see them for the whole night.

Because I was super lazy to club, half the time I was outside.

LAZY GIRL IS ME.

My stupid "girl" friend.

Funny how we met.

My birthday chalet, I woke up next to this person on the bed.

I was like who the hell is this and is it a guy or a girl...

You've got to admit he looks hell lot like a butch.

Teehee no offense braaahhh.

On Saturday, went to Zirca for a friend's birthday celebration.

I honestly have no idea who the birthday boy is till I met him.

Well, that's what the package deal with A is all about.

Without her I won't club, without me she won't! ^^

Presenting you the birthday boy, Noah! :)

There was a hell lot of alcohol, but I #maintain.

Drank super little because I predicted that there will be lots of drunk people for me to take care of.

What a nice girl... :)

TUMBLR MATERIAL LAAAAA. HAHAHA.

Thanks I know I have the potential to be a photographer. :)

The birthday boy was.. super duper gone.

Super duper is an understatement.

But overall, it was a pretty awesome night!

I'm always meeting Tyrone on Sundays.

Had lunch at central and we went to Kbox because we were bored.

Headed to James's place to watch them play FIFA later in the night.

The whole time Oscar, Tyrone and myself were nua-ing on the bed.

Love them maximumz.

Sigh. I have no school until Friday.

What should I do with my life.

Nope, school work is actually last on my list.. /:

Ughhh I wanna quit so bad.

2011-11-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

Second tatt on the second of November.

TEEHEE :)

2011-11-02T03:39:00.003+08:00

Had a really bad start to the day today.

Went to speak to my course manager because I wanted to drop my cds.

He was like...

CM: Kzel, do you know how I know about you anot.

Me: No

CM: I know about students that are either doing very very good, or their name just keeps appearing.

Me: loolllll /:

Anyway, he said a lot of stuff.

Motivational, inspirational, whatever you call it.

And yeah, what he said was true.

What for waste another 1.5 year in something you're not interested in?

Talked about my mother, and how much I didn't want to disappoint her...

Therefore I have decided to just bite the bullet...

Finish this course, get my dip, and go overseas to study.

Yes I will do that. #persevere

Headed to starbucks with my bbg after that to finish up my assignment.

Met my BFF for a short while. Somebody wear army uniform like handsome only?

Mahjong with dennis lijun and mini ben.

Luck wasss on my sideeee!!! ^^

Celebrated my dearest girl's 18th birthday at summer breeze.

One graveyard, and she puked like as if she drank a thousand of graveyards.

Haha. But still very happy that the four of us got together and hanged out.

Like old times :')

Love the three of you maximum.

13143344520

Happy birthday Germaine. Muacks.

2011-11-01T01:08:00.006+08:00

And your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

School is a waste of my time and my money.

#whatsnew

I wanna quit but I'm already half way there...

Can't wait to get out of this shit hole.

On the bright side, I HAVE A TWO DAYS MC YO.

Coughing like a mother toot and my throat's being a bitch.

Peace out mother fuckerzxzs

PICHAS4YOU

LE SIGH RYAN GOSLING Y U SO HAWTTTTTT. Meltz like cinnamon meltz.

2011-10-31T02:36:00.001+08:00

Someone said that I didn't blog about him.

Hihi. Love you k bro. Muacks

2011-10-31T02:07:00.005+08:00

Tired.

Tired of putting up a strong front everyday.

Tired of giving fake smiles and fake laughter to avoid the "are you okay" question.

Tired of living in this fucked up world.

Not that I miss you.

Not that I'm jealous.

Tsk. I really thought you were different.

Sucks to know how much I really reaaaally meant to you.

Fuck the "you mean the whole world to me" bullshit.

"2 years to forget her"

"I can't live without you"

I believed you, I really did.

And that is what's killing me right now.

The fact that I meant nothing to you.

THANKSSSSSSSSSS. #respect

At this point of time there is only one person I wanna talk to.

That one person whom I know will knock some sense into ma head fo sho

2011-10-30T14:52:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween all.

Heavy heart....

2011-10-26T15:01:00.001+08:00

Monday afternoon with my girls and Mr. Farhan! :)

I hate playing lan cause I suck at it but playing with them... (Y)

Best.

Photo credits to Shirley, stole them from her blog. Teehee.

Buttered yesterday because it's a public holiday today.

Paitao-ed work so I'm gonna get fucked big time tomorrow.

I don't care.... Don't care about anything at alllll.

My life sucks.

2011-10-24T11:31:00.003+08:00

Saturday Night.

#last #endofhols

So from the pictures I'm sure you can tell who's gone and who's not.

K I was high, #standard #whatsnew

THANKS TO THE MANY TEQUILA SHOTS.

Anything but tequila please..

Then someone sorta confessed to me.

WANT TO LAUGH OR CRY I DON'T KNOW UH.

Timecheck: 11:39AM

I'm supposed to be in school but I just woke up not long ago.

I LOVE LIFE and I hate school lololol.

By the way I'm growing fatter and fatter..

I have to stop eating so much.

Or go running everyday. #plan

FUCK MY LIFE. SPENT 150 BUCKS TO REPAIR THIS STUPID SHIT.

God is giving me a huge sign, don't club anymore.

But then again I'm not a fucking believer MUAHAHA.

2011-10-22T17:00:00.003+08:00

I had a fucked up Friday morning and afternoon thanks to a mother fucker.

The most craziest thoughts kept running through my fucking head.

Plus the love songs at work didn't help a single bit.

Feel so cheated.

I think it's safe to say that your love was a lieeee.

Big fat fucking lie.

To think I pitied you that's why I carried on suffering in silence.

FOR WHAT?! Knn.

Anyway.. Babygirl came to fetch me from work.

Walked around town for awhile then headed to Bugis.

SOUL-ed. Made my night so much better :)

I was so fucking high.. I laughed at myself when I re-read the texts I sent out last night.

Sadly, woke up to the same old bullshit again.

#reality #life

Some pictures for you all~

LAST ROUND TONIGHT AT ZOUK.

#bueytank #dieyoung

But meh fuck it, school's gonna fucking start.

2011-10-19T23:08:00.005+08:00

After 19 days, it finally hit me.

My afternoon was so fucked up. Nothing went my way.

N O T H I N G.

And when I needed somebody to run and cry to,

I realised I didn't have anyone anymore.

Yes I have my awesome friends, but most of them are so busy.

What I meant was, someone whom I know will definitely be there for me.

So I sat down, confused with my life, not knowing what I want.

But I chose this path and I promised myself not to turn back..

Hence, I'll make the fucking best out of it.

If you're thinking... Nope, I don't regret it :)

I just missed having someone there...

Thanks to Amanda, that problem was easily resolved.

And of course my BFF who listened to me whine for five straight minutes.

Plus all the others who made me laugh while bbm-ing, whatsapp-ing and texting.

You know who you are. Muacks.

2011-10-19T02:36:00.004+08:00

Have been awake since 6.30am this morning,

it's 2.36am now and my brain is almost dead.

But I don't feel like sleeping because there's too many things on my mind.

Don't you get those nights?

Anyway, the girls came over for a game of mahjong in the afternoon.

Had dinner and then an impromptu decision to go prawning.

Love my bff because he always gives me what I want :)

Someone asked me before, why I don't even bother considering him to be my boyfriend.

All I said was "we know too much about each other"

True, no? Plus it'll be sad if things didn't work out and we can't even be friends after.

Some pictures to make y'all feel hungry at midnight. Teehee.

This week is the last week of our holidays..

When school reopens, new semester, new classmates, new timetable.

Ugh the thought of it makes me sick.

I said I wanted to stop partying for awhile because I'll be busy working my butt off this week.

But come to think of it, last week of the hols, why not?

Just hope I won't fall sick!

Shall turn in now.

Phuture tonight with secondary school buddies and my girls.

Praying for a good night!

2011-10-17T22:35:00.005+08:00

Honestly, being single feels so fucking good.

Who the fuck said we can't be happy without a partner?

Had an awesome time at Soul &Avalon last Friday. Avalon is just fucking gorgeous!

Sad to say all the pictures are not with meeee.

On Saturday, was supposed to go chill at some bar with Ben.

Impromptu decision.... Then we all went to club instead.

BAD ASS IDEA. We paid 28 bucks to squeeze in a bunch of smelly malays.

So.. We walked out and had drinks at Chupitos Bar.

Cute place! I lovvveee their shots glasses!!!!

Also, their shots prices are really good, $6 for a shot.. WHY NOT?!

When our shots came, Amanda was like "eh look like condom sia".

Apparently someone hasn't seen a condom before hahahahahaha.

But it looks pretty wrong huh, still, it's so cute and the best part is I BROUGHT IT HOME. Hehe.

Met my two favourite boys yesterday for some tauhuey.

I swear they made me laugh till I was closed to tears.

SO WHAT IF THEY'RE ONLY 17?

I bet they're more mature than many 18 or 19 year olds.

Muackz.

I realize that I don't care about this bullshit as much as I thought I did.

AND THAT'S WHAT MAKES LIFE SO FUCKING AWESOME :)

I'm so much happier now. Everyone else thinks so too.

Time to hit the fucking sack, waking up at 6.30am like a secondary school girl.

Pfft. The things we do for money...

NIGHT, x

2011-10-14T15:29:00.003+08:00

"I live for the nights I can't remember

with people I'll never forget"

True that!! #lifemotto

Phuture-d again on Wednesday. Boring night...

Tonight at CLUB SOUL! Come on down and show some love cause my friend's friend will be spinning!! :)

2011-10-12T02:05:00.002+08:00

Freedom. Happiness.

GOT FEEL FOR ANOTHER TATT. Soon soon~~

2011-10-11T14:11:00.003+08:00

Monday Bruueezxszz.

Met up with ma biatchessxzx. First we town-ed.

Then we wo ai tai mei-ed, eh their fries sex laaa.

Our last destination for the day was Nabins; sheesha, chill drinking, dare or double dare ;)

Took a whole lot of scandalous photos! It's on fb but only those who were there ytd can view it. Sometimes facebook's privacy thang is quite useful la hor.

Today I will nua at home until I rot.

2011-10-09T13:52:00.004+08:00

Town-ed with Hasif, Sheen &Janey yesterday.

"Good day with good company" I quote.

Because we were so fucking bored, we caught change-up :) I must say it's one good movie, worth the $10.50!! Plus the company, made it even better. I totally can't remember when was the last time I caught a movie with my friends.

Dinner-ed, heart2heart talk, starbucks, tau huey after. They all went home, I stayed and caught another movie out of boredom again..

Fucked up show, don't bother catching it. So much talking....

Kthxbai. Lazy already uhzxzsx.

2011-10-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

Hiii.

I'm so free now that I'm single HAHA. Friends busy/no plans = suck thumb and stay home.

So yesterday... Went to Cheryl's birthday party in the evening, it was like a secondary school gathering!! So many greenviewans. Miss secondary school so much :( Happy 18th Cheryl, legal lohhhh!! Luv ya.

Headed to Phuture after that with my usual girls + Keith + Jasper + Francis! Let me tell you all what I remember...

Nothing. LOL. Okay kidding. I remembered that we all gan bei and cheered to all of us being single. Nice nice nice. Then I drank like a lot when I reached my limits already because of Ms Ng.... She threatened that she'll smoke if I don't drink up.

WHAT KIND OF FRIEND. Anyway I can't remember shit. I don't remember talking or calling anyone, walking in to phuture ya da ya da. But I'm so touched that I have nice friends. Sigh. Love you all next wednesday do it alllll over again okie :p

2011-10-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

So, first of October marked the end of our 1 year and 23 days relationship.

The one year relationship I had with you was pretty awesome even tho' we had lots of ups and downs. I know, I know you're the only guy that will ever do everything and anything just to make me happy. I know you're willing to forsake all that you have in this world just to see a smile on my face. I know how much effort you've put to make our relationship work.

But I can't be selfish right? You deserve someone better, someone who doesn't scream and shout at you whenever she's in a bad mood.. Someone who is willing to sacrifice all of her time for you.. In short, someone who will love you more than you love her.

That girl's not me. I'm not the kinda girl who will give 24 hours to my partner. I need my space. I have a fucking bad temper. I don't wanna hurt you with every word I say. You think it doesn't hurt me to see you in pain? Think again... After all, we've been through so much.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry my first ever true love broke my heart and crushed all hopes I ever had for love. I'm sorry I thought I could love you like I loved him. I'm sorry that I have to protect myself and ended up hurting you...

Yes it's true I want my freedom, I want to do anything with no restrictions. But I want you to be happy, I want you to love and get something back in return. I don't want you to be afraid of waking up every morning not knowing if I'll still be there...

I hope the next girl you find will love you like how you want to be loved. Good luck and really, thank you for everything you've done for me. Don't cry over a girl that doesn't love you as much as you love her. Be happy, life is daaamn short.

K, xx

2011-09-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

Oscar's and my advanced birthday celebration at Avatar. Love them max :*

2011-08-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

XOXO

Not my best but yeah whatever just for fun!!

2011-07-13T20:01:00.002+08:00

At Avatar two weeks ago? :)

School is draining every single bit of my energy out of me.

&Life is pretty mundane. It sucks actually.

Oh well, life still goes on.....

2011-07-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

Location: The Butter Factory

People involved: Baby, Jeremy, Mel, Hasif, Oli, Jane, Bella, Lisyuan and Shirley

Ladies night. Wasn't that much of an awesome night. Could have been better if there weren't so many drunk people to take care of. Oh well, it happens. &Like this bitch pissed me off so fucking bad. Can't even let me party properly. #lastwarning #burninhell

Location: Club Avatar

People involved: Baby, Lester, Oli, Mel, Khai, Sheen, Falfen, Ben, and an extra jerk.

Yeay fucking awesome Friday night. Opened a 1.5l bottle of courvoisier and Lester won us another smaller bottle of it. Practically everyone was high and partying their night away. FAWESOME SHIT, no regrets. &Mr. bouncer didn't even check my ic. Beat that bitches. :)

More photos up on facebooook.

2011-06-29T15:44:00.002+08:00

Catch me tonight at The Butter Factory with my boys and girls!

Freeflow house pour and beer till 1am

and VIP pass, whoop whoop~

Keep downing drinks like there's no tomorrow.

;)

2011-06-26T19:08:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO PLAY COOKING MAMA NAOOOOO!!!! :(

2011-06-25T03:09:00.002+08:00

Back from Genting!

Day 01

The four of us, Jeremy, Claudia, Bf and me took the 11.30pm coach to Genting. Huge ass mistake. We reached Genting at about 5am in the morning and we couldn't check-in to the hotel till 1pm.

Had macs and kfc breakfast, all for a good price. Thinking that we were loaded, me and baby ate quite a bit. Heeheee.

Check out their packaging for takeaways. Quite cute ^^

After breakfast, we camped at Macdonalds because there was wifi. Slept for awhile and FINALLY, it was time to check-in! Yayyy

Slept for a good few hours and then the four of us headed out for dinner. Our dinner is pretty cool! Order whatever meat we want, they'll put the raw meat on this very hot piece of stone. It's called 'Hot Stone' and it's located at the food court :)

I had boneless lamb chop, baby and Jeremy had chicken, while Claudia had sirloin steak. I find that the sauce they gave was really salty and the.rice.sucks. But it was pretty cheap cause there was this on-going promotion so whatever lorsxszx. But it's really quite an interesting idea to cook our meat on the stone thing instead of the usual hotplate. No?

(wanted to upload the chicken one also butttt, bad angle)

It's always dessert after dinner, right? Despite the 17 degrees temperature outside, we still had ice cream for dessert. Why? Because there's no Baskin Robbins in Singapore :( Candy floss and old fashion butter pecan for me and baby~ I can go on for days about how pretty and delicious the candy floss flavoured ice cream is. I swear. But I shall not start heeeeez.

(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Eat ice-cream already then happy so take picha.

We headed to the bar after that, it's called Patio Bar & Lounge. They had something like a live band going on. The girls can really sing. Because there was a happy hour promotion, we got two jugs of beer for the price of one. It was pretty cheap, about 30rm each. So that makes it $18+ for two jugs? Yup. In Singapore with $18 I think we can only get about 3 bottles of Bacardi Breezer har har kidding.

Went back to the hotel to crash after that. It was a longgggg day.

Day 02

Because baby and I spent quite a bit of money on food, we were pretty broke on the second day. So we decided not to go to the theme park (also because he was scared), and we slept in. Thank God we made the right decision because it rained super heavily! (Y)

Baby and I had lunch at Marrybrown. Nothing much, just chicken. Tried it because Singapore mei you and I kiasu. Teehee.

Headed back to the hotel to nua, while baby went to the gym. Met Jeremy and Claudia for dinner at some steamboat place. Fucked up thing about that place? They didn't have needle mushrooms. WHAT THE FUCK. I was so sad that I spammed button mushrooms in hope that they'll magically turn into needle mushrooms. Sigh

Dessert after dinner again! It was Wednesday, so Baskin Robbins were having this Wed = pink day promotion :D We had the real candy floss in replacement for the candy floss flavoured ice cream. WHY NO MORE, WHY.

Time for a little exercise after all that we ate! Glow in the dark bowling, baby and I teamed up and obviously we owned Jeremy and Claudia hands down! Hahaahahah.

Olivia called and we met her for a drink at the bar again. Whoop, damn happy to meet fellow Singaporeans when we're overseas! Oh, saw a few TDS students too!

Some pics from the bar!

After drinking, baby, Oli and me decided to go out and take a short walk. Y'know, enjoy the weather because Singapore will never be that cold. Sent Oli back to her hotel (awesome suite) and headed back to ours.

Show off hehe

Macho boy! :*

Day 03

Headed back to Singapore at about 2.30pm, and reached Singapore 7 hours later. All in all, baby &I spent lots of quality time together and I enjoyed it. Luv you.

And I shall end this blog post with these two photos.... Teehee

2011-06-25T03:09:00.001+08:00

Back from Genting!

Day 01

The four of us, Jeremy, Claudia, Bf and me took the 11.30pm coach to Genting. Huge ass mistake. We reached Genting at about 5am in the morning and we couldn't check-in to the hotel till 1pm.

Had macs and kfc breakfast, all for a good price. Thinking that we were loaded, me and baby ate quite a bit. Heeheee.

Check out their packaging for takeaways. Quite cute ^^

After breakfast, we camped at Macdonalds because there was wifi. Slept for awhile and FINALLY, it was time to check-in! Yayyy

(wanted to upload the chicken one also butttt, bad angle)

(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Eat ice-cream already then happy so take picha.

Went back to the hotel to crash after that. It was a longgggg day.

Day 02

Baby and I had lunch at Marrybrown. Nothing much, just chicken. Tried it because Singapore mei you and I kiasu. Teehee.

Time for a little exercise after all that we ate! Glow in the dark bowling, baby and I teamed up and obviously we owned Jeremy and Claudia hands down! Hahaahahah.

Olivia called and we met her for a drink at the bar again. Whoop, damn happy to meet fellow Singaporeans when we're overseas! Oh, saw a few TDS students too!

Some pics from the bar!

Show off hehe

Macho boy! :*

Day 03

Headed back to Singapore at about 2.30pm, and reached Singapore 7 hours later. All in all, baby &I spent lots of quality time together and I enjoyed it. Luv you.

And I shall end this blog post with these two photos.... Teehee

2011-06-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

Batam with the family earlier on this morning....

Life sucks when you wake up at 6am, can't smoke, and sooo many people asking you to buy cigarettes for just $2. But whatever, I survived. It was an eye opening experience.

First time everrrr, I saw with my own eyes, 5 people on a bike!! Been hearing about it but I just never seem to get a chance to see it. :) And I've set my eyes on a pomeranian when I can get a dog of my own. THE PUPPY IS JUST FUCKING KEWWWWT!!! So fluffy I swear if the owner wasn't there I would have smuggled it back to spore.

Genting tomorrow with baby, jeremy and his plus one. Stoked, but fucking lazy to pack :(

2011-06-18T16:48:00.003+08:00

OH YAYYYYY!!!

School's out for all TDS students. I've waited so long for this day. PACKAGING DESIGN WAS SHIT AND I'M FUCKING GLAD IT'S OVER :]

So, to celebrate the end of block and also Oli's belated birthday.. Us, girls (babytches, shanna, angela and the annoying abelle teehee), headed over to Alley Bar at Somerset to drink! 25 shots for $60, cheap cheap. Opened a bottle and had beer as well. Thank you Lester for all your help :D

It was about 1am when our drinks finished, SO WE WENT TO ZOUK. Fucking impromptu, I was in the ugliest clothes ever :( Heeeheeee I know I'm not officially 18 yet, but I got in! *grins4eva* Saw fuck loads of people there and I was irritating Charles at the bar the whole time. Hehe who ask him to work there rightt.

BECAUSE I WAS PRETTY HIGH I THINK I HUGGED ALOT OF PEOPLE WHICH I DIDNT SEE FOR A VERY LONG TIME. Oops I'm no slut k, I luv my greenview kias forever.

Thank you Baby, Bella, Abelle, Lisyuan, Atiqah, Shirley, Oli, Shanna and Angela for the awesome night. Muacks4eva.

2011-06-05T15:20:00.000+08:00

Super belated post but Happy 18th Amanda! xx

2011-06-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

San Fransico baybeh.

2011-05-29T19:33:00.001+08:00

Hope you find the picture familiar because I love you too -spams hugs and kisses-

2011-05-21T14:25:00.002+08:00

Been ill since Monday night. Down with a fever, slight sore throat and cough. Yep, damn right it's throat infection again.. Xiaosmokerdieearly93.

Anyway my sweetest boyfriend took care of me since Monday night. Forcing me to eat my meds, making honey lemon drink for me, feed me meals, accompany me to do boring things at home cause I can't step out of my house, cuddling me to sleep and tucking me into bed before he goes home.

So caring and thoughtful I don't know where to find another one whom is even up to standard to compare :P xiaoboastxszxz

2011-05-15T16:18:00.001+08:00

We all need a person who can be true to you.

2011-05-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

To all wonderful mothers out there, happy mother's day :)

Real busy day today! Church + lunch with love's family, own couple time because it's our 8th month, and dinner with my family.

Wasn't really intending to go to church, but since it's mother's day. Why not give his mom a little surprise huh. I got to admit that it wasn't that bad after all. Have to thank Deborah for the company :)

After lunch, love and I headed to Dhoby for a short while. I was having my menstrual cramps so we decided to head over to his place. Watched TVD and played wii till we forgot about the time! Rushed over to my place for steamboat. Yay!

So like he said, technically, we spent the whole day together. Happy 8 months baby, I love you and I'll always will. Soon enough we won't even have fingers to count how many months we've been together. Thanks for always, always, making my gloomiest day seem so bright. ♥

2011-05-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hello readers (if there's any).

School has started for one week already. Sad to say, almost all my classes this semester starts at 9am. So many reasons to not look forward to school each day. First of all, I have to wake up super early. Secondly, the bus is always so mafuckin' pack and there'll always be traffic jams :(

September 8 faster come so I can faster get my license and all my problems will be solved.

Proud to say that I have not skipped school last week. As for the upcoming week, mannnn just pray hard I can wake up on time.

Life has been pretty mundane. It's like I'm doing the same thing everyday. School > fishing (sometimes) > home > 2.5 men > sleep. The only thing good about it is that I can meet my baby :D

BORING!

2011-04-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

So, it has been a week since I've started my holidays. Days spent playing games, drinking, hanging out with friends. In short, I'm actually wasting my holidays away. No job, no money, but still got honey uh. Babyboy ♥

Since I have time, let me share with you what happened during the past 2 days :)

Monday, 04/04

Went to play pool and l4d2 at grandlink square. After that, dinner then sheesha. Met like friendly people but not my kind of friends :/

Yesterday! :)

Met lynn ho after so many yeeears, I think I got her addicted to the fishing game. Haha, yay. At night, went to pondstar with baby, jon, jeremy, amanda, kat and oscar. Last time our bill always never hit a hundred bucks, but recently we've been spending alot of money there. Jon was a little high and I loike (y) It was a good night.

It's 5:30 now, in half and hours time it'll be 6pm and I'm gonna fetch Sapphire with Kat! Omg I miss that lil girl so much!!

2011-03-22T02:18:00.001+08:00

Lots of shit to update, but gotta finish photog first

BEAR WITH ME :3

2011-03-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

Baby, you're my everything

You're all I ever wanted

2011-03-15T18:55:00.001+08:00

BALI IN APRIL, fuck yeah!!

2011-03-12T01:41:00.004+08:00

Yesterday.....

Pretty boring and fucked up day. Went to school for only 1 hour then decided to leave :x Impromptu drinking session at chalet at night which caused me to skip school today. Hmm, oh well, works for me ;)

Today!

Woke up with a fucked up stomach, I thought it was due to the alcohol last night but no... Fucking menstrual cramps, so good at ruining my life. Anyway, had lunch with Raf before crashing baby's place..

Raf and I were kinda like panicking cuz of the tsunami in Japan #prayfortheworld :( Nua-ed at baby's place till 9ish then we headed to Tampines; Harry's bar :) Jon, Lester and the rest were supposed to join us but they ditched us for Rebel. Meh. Would have been there if not for the underage problem. SIGH. 6 more months _|_

Somebody Martell sibohhhhhh, heh heh heh. ♥

2011-03-12T01:17:00.007+08:00

Belated 6th month post!

It was an awesome Tuesday I must say. First of all, why? Because I had no school and boyfriend took an off day at work :)

So he came over to my place and we headed to Dhoby. After knowing baby I realized that I find myself at Dhoby alot :x Went to grab a bite then to the arcade! For the first time I was actually looking forward to going there, because the fishing game got me hooked baybeh.

Had our dinner at Aijisen Ramen, virgin eating experience! The food looks good but nah it was average. Due to not knowing that Gelare has closed down at Plaza sing, we walked over to Cathay to have Ben & Jerry's for dessert.

Hmm, that's about it ;) Even though it seemed like a normal date, it doesn't matter as long as I'm spending time with you :) Happy belated 6th months baby, I love you so much.

Fucking flash make my eyes become smaller.

2011-03-09T01:21:00.003+08:00

I was bored while waiting for baby so I did this on illustrator.

Then I got bored doing it sooooo ya I know it's retarded.

Well, happy 6th months baby :D

2011-03-07T01:10:00.011+08:00

Had a pretty interesting weekend..

First of all, the class headed to the ACM for design history and culture. I have to admit that Terence was being very smart by making submission on the day of the field trip. Which means this is the first field trip I have not skipped, especially when it's held on a fucking weekend. Kudos to Terence.

Left halfway during the tour, 4 of us headed to Dhoby to have lunch. After lunch it was only me and Atix. Love her for accompanying me (oh with Freddy too) and as usual we gossiped like no tomorrow.

Met baby and we headed over to Alex's rented apartment at Lavender. Oh wait, as usual he dragged me to the arcade to play his favourite game at plaza sing....

Nice place, and the dog was huge and quite annoying because it barks freaking loudly and he's black. But overall, he was cute :)

We went down to have dinner at Lighthouse Bistro. Nice place, good food, great company :) Everything was perfect except for the songs they played. Fucking brought me back to the past which i.do.not.want.to.go.back.to. Whatever it is, it was still awesome.

Soo handsome and cute uh my boyfriend?

Check out the food, makes you wanna droool.

Baby's oh-so-delicious burger. The 'can die for' beef and onion rings. Or so he claims.

Sirloin steak. LAV IT! :)

Oh this is the appetizer, prawn cocktail? Hate the fact that there were tons of pineapple :(

Awesome dessert! Grilled banana served with icecream.

I have a thing for bananas you see ;)

After dinner, we headed back to my area to lepakz and we ended up taking stupid shots with the camera. Heh. Ganster boy. Heartshape

That was my Saturday :) Everything was pretty much unplanned. But you get the most unexpected moments during unplanned situation. Love it :)

As for today, headed over to Bella's place then to Oli's for the photoshoot.

Finished everything then headed to tamp to meet baby. Cabbed over to downtown for a movie, The Adjustment Bureau. IT WAS FUCKING GOOD, go catch it people!

2011-03-06T14:17:00.001+08:00

Fuck this shit, last block but I'm already in a holiday mood :(

And I'm loving the Helvetica font. AH what typo has done to me.

2011-02-27T00:39:00.004+08:00

Baby's 20th birthday *kiss*

Finally, after so long, babyboy and me spent some quality time together today. Headed out for a movie at The Cathay, I am number four. Not bad? Hated the suspense as usual, was caught screaming and jumping out of my seat at one point or another. But, but, baby was beside me to calm me down and tell me it's okay. And that's all that mattered :)

After the movie, we went down to Geylang to have our favourite pig's organ soup and rochor beancurd. It's been damn long. Especially after since we don't have a transport there and back except the mrt which is not advised for lazy people like us. The meal was fantastic, damn shiok, sex in a bowl. Came back to my place to chill and we camwhored. Hehe. I love you so much baby, thanks for always making my day. *insert hug and kiss here*

Our favourite pose! Hehe.

2011-02-24T18:40:00.002+08:00

Sorry I neglected you, apparently school has been eating up all my time. &When there's free time I'll be with ma babyboy, like seriously who else would I wanna spend time with.

February has been the shittiest month, ever. Busiest block, heaviest workload, and quite a few big events. Valentine's day, baby's birthday, yada yada. Of which I have not gotten him a gift.... But I think my surprise for him was quite good ;)

K I don't know why I'm blogging. I just don't wanna get started on work /:

2011-01-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

I wanna quit school so baaaaaad, it's tearing me apart :'(

CNY is coming, guess we all know what that means. Money! Yay I can so imagine myself playing mahjong from morning till night every single day. But you see, school has to get in the way. Next block is from 9am - 6pm, plus David has to be our lecturer for the 9am class. Ughhh.

That's why I gotta quit school. It's ruining my plans...

2011-01-20T04:12:00.004+08:00

Hi world, I have decided to come back to blogger because onsugar uploads pichas damn slowlaye~ Anyway, Happy 2011. A little slow, heh. Updates on how 2010 was still awesome even tho I felt that it was quite of a bullshit year.

First of all, meet my girls in school. School hasn't been working out for me (and it never will), but having them around made things less fucked up. *hugs*

And so I started hanging out with these few awesome peeps. During the holidays it was the supper-craze, every night we would head out to Geylang/Bedok/Tampines for supper and we would just hang out there. Not forgetting pondstar, the place that brought all of us together :)

Met new people, which helped alot. Especially Jonathan How, I swear I've never regretted knowing him even though he can be quite a bitch at times. :)

Got real close with this stupid girl, Lynn Ho, because we worked together. Yes you annoy me all the time on bbm and even like to call me when I'm sleeping just to irritate me but I love the shit outta you. *hugs*

Last but not least, why my 2010 was so awesome? Because I met the love of my life. Muacks babyy, I love you, you're the best. ♥